Almost a year since her mother's death, and for Jonida Shehu, her absence is equally difficult. Of course, the first weeks when the mother had just left were more difficult, while now the pain is there, just the same, maybe a little less... But when it is provoked, it seems to open up all over again.
This Wednesday evening, in "Goca dhe gra", Jonida Shehu also focused on the absence of her mother, who has recently passed away for a year. As the moderator confessed, longing and missing her are daily, but now she has tried to keep it more under control. Jonida's late confession, in fact, affected the girls in the studio, so much so that Dalina could not continue and stopped the program.
" I don't associate absence with periods, for me every second is a very big absence. The suffering was very great in the first month, when I returned from work, after the news. It was a ritual to get in the car and make the first phone call, after getting over the awkwardness of work, to ask how she had spent the afternoon. It has been a very difficult period. Then I started writing to him on WhatsApp, knowing that he would not answer me..." Jonida confessed, adding that she has now closed that cycle to start another one.
" Now I am alone in my thoughts. I think that he speaks to me in every action, I think that I give him an answer, if he orients me about the things that 'this is not good', 'what's wrong with this dress you're wearing, you had better wear that before'. I reply 'oh ma, no one asked you about this', that is, it is a silent communication day after day. And a few months become a year and there are 365 that you communicate with a person who is not there, you are communicating normally, you talk, you talk to him, you think about him, you answer him... "
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As she spoke, Dalina Buzi could not hold back her tears: "I can't stand it here, even more so for mom..." - she said with a broken voice and presented the publicity without turning her head from the camera.
