It's been 12 weeks since I saw terrible sms confirming my suspicions of betraying me. For two years I asked myself if you wished, because I felt unloved - so much so that I wondered if you had another connection. Feeling you avoided me. You assured me you loved me and you had no other connection, which made me feel happy for some time.
I continued to feel that something went wrong and because you provided me the opposite, I began to question my mental health. I got sick, I had panic and anxiety crises. Our children ask why you stay so much outside and why not spend time with us in the family. You continued to be an Egoist.
When I was with you for the messages on that terrible day, you told me it was just one night. Although the affinity to those messages did not sound like a 'one-night stand', you would still be assured. You reserved a meeting with a couple therapist and I agreed. 5 minutes before we went into the meeting and the destructive news that you really had an extramarital relationship for 18 months.
The world has ruined me. I was totally shocked. You were my world, my friend, my only love and you betrayed me and hurt me in a way I had never imagined. After a week, you clipped the knife again and agreed that the relationship lasted for two years. You even spent the family money for that woman and left with him on weekends. You also admitted that you bought many bottles of wine before any meeting to help you make "drunken sex".
I bought flowers, a memory card with your photos together and a pendant for her birthday. You went with him at various concerts, including the Valentine's Concert. You started a night at the hotel a day after Valentine, which was a few days before her birthday. All the time I lied to who you were or what you were doing. I trusted you!
You had a job colleague and you saw him every day, even though you said you had disconnected his contacts. I do not know if I can trust you so many lies every now and then. Unfortunately, I do not know if you continue with it, because you can do what you want as you are no longer with me. Come on!
You continue to treat me with contempt. It does not show any remorse or penance for what you have done nor do you care about me or my well-being. Treat yourself as if nothing happened.
Most of you had long since you did not want me anymore, which annoyed me because you never showed any problems in our relationship that we could have arranged for. We have been together for 28 years and there are many memories to be thrown into the trash.
All this hurts too much. I'm ruined to put the end of our relationship in such a terrible way and you became part of our marriage that bad woman and unconscious.
Say you regret, but are empty words compared to the endless pain that you've caused me and our children. I dropped my best spouse and friend and I do not know if I would ever heal this heartburn that you caused me.
Your heartbroken wife.
This letter was sent to the Guardian's editorial office.
