19 years have passed since the Beatification of the Albanian humanist Anjeze Gonxhe Bojaxhiu, known throughout the world as Mother Teresa. The winner of the Nobel Peace Prize, the man of small stature but with a big heart, dedicated her whole life to those who needed her big spirit. Mother Teresa of Calcutta was beatified on October 19, 2003 by Pope John Paul II, as a symbol of help and respect for the "poorest of the poor", to whom she dedicated her whole life.

Her secret letters were collected by Brian Kolodiejchuk, the priest who proposed to the Vatican the canonization of Mother Teresa. Perhaps also because of the turmoil that the Mother of Calcutta has had, until recently, the Church has had dilemmas about her sanctification. Kolodiejchuk has expressed that her spiritual turmoil has actually helped her: "Now we have this new worldview, a new window to her inner world, and for me, this is the most heroic thing," he said. Kolodiejchuk.

As her letters show, Mother Teresa died full of doubts. She had even stopped praying. The church decided to preserve her letters, even though one of the humanist's wishes was for them to be destroyed. Maybe now we know why…

In a rare interview in 1986, Mother Teresa told CBS News that she heard a call based on unquestioning faith: "They are all God's children, loved and created by the same heart of God." ", she said. However, it later emerged that Mother Teresa was so in doubt about her faith that she feared she was a hypocrite, CBS News correspondent Mark Phillips reported. In a book that compiles the letters she wrote to friends, her misgivings are palpable. After starting work in the slums of Calcutta, the spirit left Mother Teresa: "Where is my faith?" - she wrote. "Even in the deepest depths, there is nothing but emptiness and darkness... If there was a God, I beg him to forgive me." Eight years later, she revisited her lost faith again: "So much deep longing for God... Empty, without faith, without love, without zeal", she said, until her fame grew, faith refused to return. Her smile, as she herself said, was a mask: "What am I working for?", she asks in one of the letters. "If there were no God, there would be no soul. If there was no soul, then you, Jesus, are not real either."

Mother Teresa's teachings and orders are a new testament to humanity. On the occasion of her birthday, here are some of her most inspiring and touching expressions.

1. Speak softly to people! Show kindness in your face, in your eyes, in your smile, in the warmth of your smile, always have a cheerful smile! Give not only care, but also heart!

2. We cannot do great things, only small things with great love.

3. It doesn't matter how much we are committed to doing, but how much love we put into it.

4. If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive.

5. The poor give us more than we give them. They are such strong people, living day after day without food. And they never curse, nor complain. We should not give them sympathy, but we should learn from them.

6. The most terrible poverty is loneliness and the feeling of being unwanted.

7. If luxury surrounds us, we lose our soul. We will be able to love the poor if we know poverty and are poor ourselves.

8. If you are humble, nothing touches you, neither praise nor shame, because you know well who you are.

9. God will find another person more noble, more pious, more devoted to him and the society will continue.

10. If you judge people, you don't have time to love them.

*Anjezë Gonxhe Bojaxhiu, known as Mother Teresa, was born in Skopje on August 26, 1910 and died on September 5, 1997 in Calcutta, (India), she was a well-known Albanian humanist, winner of the Nobel Peace Prize, and on October 19 of the year 2003 was declared 'Good' by Pope Saint John Paul II.